Sunday, July 29, 2012

Kansas City

I got to Kansas City on a Frid'y
By Sattidy I larned a thing or two
'Coz up to then I didn't have an idy
Of whut the modren world was comin' to!

I counted twenty gas buggies goin' by theirsel's
Almost ev'ry time I tuk a walk.
'Nen I put my ear to a Bell Telephone 
And a strange womern started in to talk!

Ev'rythin's up to date in Kansas City
They've gone about as fur as they c'n go!
They went and built a skyscraper seven stories high,
About as high as a buildin' orta grow.
Ev'rythin's like a dream in Kansas City,
It's better than a magic lantern show!
Y' c'n turn the radiator on 
Whenever you want some heat.
With ev'ry kind o' comfort 
Ev'ry house is all complete.
You c'n walk to privies in the rain 
And never wet your feet!
They've gone about as fur as they c'n go!

Yes sir!
They've gone about as fur as they c'n go!

Ev'rythin's up to date in Kansas City
They've gone about as fur as they c'n go! 
They got a big theayter they call a burleeque.
Fer fifty cents you c'n see a dandy show.


One of the gals was fat and pink and pretty,
As round above as she was round below.

I could swear that she was padded 
From her shoulder to her heel,

But later in the second act 
When she began to peel
She proved that ev'rythin' she had was absolutely real!
She went about as fur as she could go. 

Yes sir!
She went about as fur as she could go!

  • Vintage hat, skirt, and vest
  • Thrifted one-shoulder tank top shirt
  • Gold-tone bangles, gold-tone rings, and bronze-tone rings (in other words, all the jewelry on my hands) from H&M (Netherlands)
  • I can't tell if I'm wearing earrings, and these pictures were taken a while ago. If I am, they're bronze-tone hoops and I bought them at the Baylor Bookstore
  • The necklace was a gift from my ex-boyfriend*
  • Lipstick "A Different Grape" by Clinique
  • Shoes... from Target?

Gosh, I used to always know where all my clothes came from. I have no idea where these shoes came from.

*I have talked to my ex-boyfriend (if you look through previous posts, he's featured in IBCing You and one about Catalina, and maybe some others, just so you know) about this necklace. There's a very sweet story behind how it came into his possession and why he gave it to me, and I still consider the story and the memory relevant. I offered to return it to him, but he has said that he would rather I keep it and that he gave it to me to wear. These pictures were taken a while ago and I haven't worn it in a few weeks, but there are still days when I feel naked without it. We'll see where this goes. I really don't know.

It's a bit of a long story and frankly probably no one cares what went down between the two of us, but because I'd rather be open and honest rather than look like I'm trying to hide something, and because I'd like to credit the photographer of the pictures above, I'll tell you all just a little bit. Essentially, ex-boyfriend and I were in an open relationship, I fell in love with someone else, and that wasn't okay with ex-boyfriend. We'd agreed upon a physically open relationship, but not polyamory. Over our breakup and my relationship thus far with my current boyfriend (the photographer for today's post), I learned a lot about myself. Here's a short bullet list:

  • I am pansexual. I identified as straight but slightly confused for a long time, and I do have a historical preference for men, but I've found that I am absolutely capable of love in that way for people of all sexual identities. 
  • I am polyamorous. It is part of me, and part of why ex-boyfriend and I had trouble understanding each other's expressions of love--we have different definitions of love. He doesn't believe it's possible for one person to be in love with more than one person at the same time; I know it's possible because I've done it and I'm doing it.
  • I need to be careful not to turn off emotionally to the people who actually care and want to know about my life. Turning off is a good thing to be able to do so that I can concentrate on work and everyday life, but I need to be aware of when I do it around close friends--it's not always a good thing and has almost lost me a very close friend on two occasions.
  • Love is blind--or blinding. I am pretty easily guilt-tripped, and I need to be aware of that.

I'm going to go, not least because I've had Oklahoma's "Kansas City" playing on my Spotify for the last however-many minutes... literally over half-an-hour according to Spotify, and I'm tired of it. For some reason I felt like I needed to play it while I wrote this, so I need to finish this before I turn it off. Anyhow.

Thanks for reading, guys, or for looking at the pictures, or for whatever it is you guys do here. <3 Y'all are great.

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1 comment:

  1. I really like that song! It's got a lot of humour in it!

    A friend of a friend recently had a breakup for similar reasons. I hope everything works out for you and I applaud your honesty and your strenght in your own identity that allows you to tell the truth about it.